You happen to love the mask I used to wear
And I really saw how love grows deeper
You can even spell it from A to Z
Rhymed it beautifully like 1 2 3.
You say I’m beautiful and a tear fell
Like stabbed with a golden knife, I felt
I am happy but sad as well
Feeling loved but also ill.
Day by day, I am fighting
Against the craving to reveal
Afraid to take off the mask
for you to see these scars
Afraid that you might unloved me
after seeing the broken woman I hide behind
Light up my love
Shine bright in the dark
I am just here watching at you
As you capture smiles.
Be up above longer please
For you always capture my heart
In the darkness of these hours
You are my spotlight.
Drown in the lyrics of our favorite song
Like, I am nowhere to be found.
Thinking about you as the words slips
The man that I wanna sing with.
As I play that love song into repeat
I feel like I am still at your passenger seat
Staring at you while you drive
Until we’ve reach that memorable seaside.
You hold my hand and caress my hair
That flips happily with the summer breeze
How I love to look back to that old days
The time when I am still the one that your heart beats.
You are the dream I used to dream
The thought of the song, I love to sing
You are the man I ever wanted to see
The words that makes my poetry.
As you are only an abstract for now
A prayer that I always vow
I may never recognize your face
But I know in somewhere you do exist.
To you my man in the future, please be reminded
That I am always here your unknown princess
Patiently waiting and loving you always
As long as the sun sets and rises.
I can love a thousand you
And deny a thousand hurt
Just to have with you a thousand years
And a thousand memories to kept.
If hurt will be our history
then let it be the sour in my sweet
Let it be the light in my darkness
For my love for you will never fade.
You are my hide-out, my safe haven
The sanctuary of my heart,
Destroy yourself or I will be damage
Crashed and smashed-up.
If you’ll leave me, I maybe left unsheltered
Wrecked and destroyed.
Not knowing when to be healed
The scars of loss.
So please stay, stay with me
As I long as I live,
I do, promise to love you
As long as I exist.
Do I really know myself?
Or so I don’t
Do I know what makes me smile?
Or it was just a random thoughts
Do I cared a lot?
Or so I don’t
Like I need to be loved
Or no, I won’t.
It was maybe a test of identity
To define my emotions
Make it fully understood
And not a stranger of my own.